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Manderz Musings: November 2008

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Sunday, November 30, 2008

It's the End of NaBloPoMo

I consider NaBloPoMo successful.  I've posted everyday since November 16, which is when I started.  Perhaps I shall attempt to blog daily until December 15 just to make it the full 30 days.  We shall see - I'm not going to get worried or stressed about it.

This also means that tomorrow is December.  Meaning there will be a new month showing up in my archive list (or is that only after I have more posts than are "allowed" to be shown on my front page?).  And as of Thursday, I'll have had my Blogger blog for a month.

There was a family brunch for my Grandpa's 80th birthday.  And my cousin Shawn announced that not only are he and his new-ish girlfriend engaged, but she's pregnant too.  It was kind of funny, because all the other cousins let out a bit of a sigh of relief when he told us.  The first great-grandkid is on the way - the pressure is least for a little while.  Although I'd say it's more the aunts than the grandparents that want us cousins to settle down, have kids, etc.

After work today, I went shopping.  And it was great, because it was the very first day of extended holiday hours.  So it wasn't super busy.  Here is my Christmas shopping summary:
• Completed: 7
• Partially Completed: 2
• Have Ideas: 1
• Not a Clue: 1 (maybe 2)
I'm so proud of myself for being proactive about this.  Especially since I've come across some great deals!  And best of all, not a single gift card has been purchased.  Definitely a first.

Next on my Christmas list is writing and sending my Christmas cards.  And the offer still stands - if you want me to send you one, just let me know.  I bought more cards than I have planned recipients (it's like the 8 buns vs. 12 hot dogs scandal).  But I got a great, great deal (read $1.50 a PACK).  So I'm not really complaining.

Tonight I also figured out which duffel bags I can take with me for the move.  I think I'm going to start putting some items aside this week.  And my mom also wants me to pack up the stuff that's remaining in my bedroom when I leave.  That way it can become another guest bedroom.  Which is a bit annoying since it's more work for me, but I understand why (it's my mom, and if you know her, it makes sense) and it will actually make things easier for me and my parents if I need something shipped or need to pick something out on a visit home.

In other exciting news, Enya has a new album out, and Nora Roberts has a new book (third in a trilogy too).  I can't wait to get my hands on either.

and winter came

Pagan Stone

As a random thought - I'd like to learn how to play the violin one day.  And maybe try my hand at piano again (which will mean getting over my embarrassment of playing when other people can hear).  I'd also really love to take some horse riding lessons in the future.  And learn to speak Gaelic (although it isn't very useful).

Perhaps I will be up to creating a new header this week - and therefore I can use a different background for my blog.  Something more seasonal.

Jason - we should watch Wall-e when you come home.

Which reminds me, I have 3 free movie rental coupons.  That expire on December 3.  Do you think I can use it on December 3, or must they be used by December 2?  I'm not sure.  Maybe I'll just rent in the afternoon tomorrow, one tomorrow night (or Tuesday afternoon), and the third Tuesday night.  And hopefully get ones that I can return in a week.  So it's not a mad rush to watch them all.

I just did some quizzes on Blogthings.  The consensus is:
• I have no knowledge gaps (out of philosophy, religion, economics, literature, history, science, and art).


• I should be a mechanic, architect or carpenter because
     - I am logical, calm, and detail oriented.
     - I am rational when things are chaotic, and for me, reasons always prevails.
     - While I am guided by logic, I am not a slave to it.
     - I'm flexible when it counts.  I am always open to being wrong (this is so NOT true).
     - I do best when I work with my hands, and can use tools, machines, or equipment.



• I am the Bow Pose in yoga.
     - I am an open hearted person  I seek connections and make them easily.  I am naturally generous - especially with my love and my time.
     - I have a knack for thinking up interesting ideas.
     - I am an inventor and a creator.
     - I approach everything in life with a relaxed attitude.
     - I accept what I can't change.
(I have to say - NONE of those points would be used by me to describe myself.  NONE!)

bow pose 


So I managed to spend close to 2 hours blogging.  Yet again.  Of course I'm surfing the net at the same time.  Perhaps this is something I can work on in December.  I read somewhere that having a timer go off every so often when you're working is 1) a great way to stay present and mindful, and 2) keeps you productive.  So perhaps that is something to consider.

Following the timer thought, I've always wanted to get a Zen Clock.  One that I can use as a progressive alarm clock in the morning, or a timer.

zen clock

These ones are rather expensive though.  And I'm sure I can find something that's just as good (and perhaps a bit more esthetically pleasing).  And my current romping on Amazon to find some has introduced me to the concept of a sunrise alarm.  Intriguing.

Just to Share

I'm feeling slightly nostalgic (and obviously in love) I'm sharing my favourite pictures of me and my Jason.  Just because I want another excuse to look at them.  :-)







Saturday, November 29, 2008


Work was fairly slow today.  Which for the sake of the animals in Calgary, is a very good thing.  But the 10 hours definitely dragged.

Tonight I watched TV.  A little of What Not to Wear (British Edition), Britain's Next Top Model, Canada's Worst Driver 4, So You Think You Can Dance Canada, Tori & Dean: Home Sweet Hollywood, and probably a few other shows.

For dinner I had some mozzarella cheese and Triscuit crackers.  For a snack later I had some raspberries, a berry smoothie, milk, and some Chips Ahoy mini-cookies.  Yum.

Now I am attempting to come up with my Christmas list (meaning books that I want) for Jason's family gift-exchange.

I kept thinking of things to blog about while at work.  But rather than writing them down, I just remembered them.  Which works.  Except I don't really feel like writing.  If I'd written more earlier, at least I could have copied.

Oh well.  Too late now.

NaBloPoMo is almost over.  I think I'm going to attempt to blog daily in December.  I enjoy it.

Friday, November 28, 2008

It's Friday!

Today was a good day.

The field trip was great.  Learned lots, and enjoyed myself.

I got together with Hannah.  We hung out (for the first time in years).  Nothing fancy, but that made it even better.  I still love her like crazy.

I didn't go to yoga like I was planning.  Nor did I go to Jason's to sleep like I usually do.  But by staying home for dinner, I managed to get Chinese food.  So I don't really mind.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

And Stress Attack

I went to school today.  First time this week.  It was ok. 

Construction class was pretty boring.  We sat on the roof while our teacher lectured on roof materials (mainly his opinions again).  Class ended an hour early this time.  And we didn't do any work.  He asked for volunteers to put some shingles on.  But not really in a way that suggested he wanted stuff done - more just for a quick demo.  I didn't volunteer - I like doing work, but not with the whole class watching me.  I really don't like being the centre of attention.

water centre I found out we're going on a field trip tomorrow.  To the Calgary Water Centre.  Turns out it's a mandatory class, so it's a good thing I found out so I could push my lunch plans back an hour.

We had a guest teacher come in to another class.  So we learned a bit about heating systems in houses.  Basically what I got out of it was: in-floor radiant heating anywhere I go would make me a much happier person - I probably wouldn't be as cold.

Tonight I went for coffee with Steve.  We do this every 3 months or so.  Always something to look forward to.  It's some good conversation.  I will miss this ritual when I move.  Although he might be going to Slave Lake to work next year for a bit, so perhaps we can meet in the middle at some point.  I told him to get Skype though - maybe we'll just buy our Starbucks in our respective cities and talk via webcam instead every so often.

I highly recommend Skype.  It's a really good quality video.  And since it's free, you just can't go wrong.  So if anyone wants to webcam with me once I go (or even now), just let me know and I'll add you to my Skype list.  I only go on if I'm expecting a "call" though.

Tonight I just let the stress of moving, and the final weeks of school (and ensuing projects) get to me.  Not on purpose.  It started as an innocent conversation with my dad.  And I just kept getting more and more worried.  I feel like there's so much to do - and 1) not enough time to do it all; 2) the stuff that has to be done is complicated and time-consuming; 3) I'm unable to do stuff without more details about the move (which I'm probably not going to get, but nevertheless); 4) I don't think Putt-Putt (my car) is big enough; 5) I have no clue what I'm going to be doing job-wise or even activity-wise in Fort McMurray, so how do I determine what's a "must-bring" and what's a "it can wait"; 6) when I'm going to pack everything since I've got exams December 15-19, I'm working December 20-23, and I need to have everything ready between December 24-25; and get the idea.  It just kept going.  And I'm the type of person to get stressed out really, really easily.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008


I don't really have much to write about.  I didn't go to school again today.  Didn't really get a lot of homework done either.  I spent some time making all my yarn skeins into yarn balls for all my current knitting projects.  And I knitted some more of my scarf while watching some CSI and the Dog Whisperer.  Tonight I copied all my files from the family computers onto an external hard drive so everything can come with me when I move.  I also went to Michael's and got the 2nd colour I need for my next knitting project.  I'm debating as to whether I should buy an extra skein of each colour though, just in case.  I never know just how far one skein will go.  And since I'm going to be mucking with the pattern a bit (well, casting on more than required so that I can make it bigger), it might be a good plan.  The problem is, the colours I'm using are very popular.  This is the 3rd time I've gone looking for this colour (at 2 different locations).

Tomorrow is construction class.  Hopefully the siding is finished.  Actually, I'm hoping we can get on the roof and put some shingles on.  I want to swing a hammer again.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Warning: Broken Prioritization

I have a major assignment due tomorrow.  I haven't done a single bit of work on it.  But I did spend time today finishing other homework.  Stuff that is weighted way less, and isn't due until later in the week.  Oops.  I should feel guilty, but I really don't.  At least I enjoyed the work I did do today.  That's important too.

I washed my bedding today.  I love sleeping in a freshly made bed.

Tonight I hope to be in bed by 11pm, with lights out by midnight.  I've had a few too many late nights, so I need to stop before I completely screw up my schedule.

1 month until Christmas today.  :-)

Monday, November 24, 2008

It's an Excitement Day

Today was one of the days I was super excited about moving.  Especially after Jason told me he's going to pay the security deposit for the suite he looked at.  I looked at the pictures tonight for it - really nice looking.  So as soon as the owner calls Jason back, we'll have one more piece of the puzzle put in.  :-)

I'm back to working on that model.  I'm kind of enjoying it now.  Trying to make the best of it is helping.  Although I'm not necessarily getting the stuff required done.  Which isn't so good.  But I'll get there.  I'm figuring stuff out in my own way.  I'll hold off on posting my blog until I finish for the night.  Then you can see the differences!


This is taking forever.  But I'm slowly adding windows and doors.  And then I will add a few pieces of furniture, a couple people, and same vegetation outside.  Seeing as it's 11:45pm, I don't think I will be finishing the assignment completely.  But we'll see.  I'm quite impressed with how much I managed to accomplish (and without getting frustrated or crying this time!).

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Oh So Sleepy

I don't know why Sunday nights leave me feeling so drained.  Maybe because I always end up sleeping in.  Whatever the reason though, this is going to be a short post because of it.

I went to Dustin and Tiffany's after work today to watch the Grey Cup.  Not because I wanted to see the game.  I just wanted to see some friends.  It was kind of weird, I met them through Jason, and this was my first time spending time with them without him around.  Needless to say, it made me miss him even more.

It was really great to see them though.  And hopefully I can spend lots of time with Tiff before I leave.  They even said they'd come visit us up in Fort McMurray.  Which is awesome.  :-)  I'm hoping lots of people will come visit actually.  But it will probably depend on what type of accommodations we end up getting.

Jason looked at a suite today.  It sounds really, really nice.  But I know Jason would rather not have to deal with the rush hour traffic that would come with moving there.  And I'm still up in the air about whether I want to deal with that or not.  Avoiding traffic will probably mean renting a room in a shared house of some sort though.  Which definitely is not my ideal.  So I guess it's a matter of figuring out which is the lesser of two evils.  And then weighing all the pros and cons.  It would be a lot easier if I was able to see the places myself to make the decision.

Saturday, November 22, 2008


It is 11:24pm.  That means I have 36 minutes to post this blog.  Because that's what NaBloPoMo is about.  Oh dear, 11:25pm.  I know myself.  I know how easily I become distracted.  Sometimes having 2 monitors works against me.  Like now.  Me typing this on one screen, multiple exciting blogs to read on the other.  The other blogs just happen to be on the bigger screen.  That doesn't make it any easier.  Could I change them around?  Yes.  Could I switch back to only a single monitor?  Yes.  Will I do either?  No.


11:27pm now.  I read a great book today.  Very short.  But it got the point across, and there really wasn't any fluff.  It's about boosting morale at work.  Does that sound corny to anyone?  It does to me.  I still think the book is worth a read though.  It inspired me.  I hope.


And 11:31pm.  Finding a picture and link took up some time.  But I can do this.  29 minutes to go.  Work went well today.  I was at the vet.  And I got to do what I do best (and honestly, enjoy the most) - answer phones, filing, and faxing.  Not that I mind manning the front desk and admitting patients and looking after the invoices.  But being in the back is just that little bit more comfortable for me.  I feel less stressed out when things get busy back there.  Even if the phone is ringing off the hook, and I've got piles of paper everywhere.  I still feel organized.  Hopefully my next job in Fort McMurray will let me live up to my full potential.  Although I will still probably take anything that sounds half decent.  And a phone call to start things off would be greatly appreciated.

So 11:36pm now.  I feel like saying I love you Jason.  Just because I can.  And because I know you'll read this first thing when you get up in the morning.  As much as you can read with one eye looking blearily at the bright screen of your Blackberry.  Mwah!  Have fun looking at our future home.  You better give me all the details as soon as you get them.  And I really would like pictures.

11:39pm and counting.  Maybe I can write a decent amount of words relatively quickly when I put my mind to it.  The inspiration seems to almost be coming faster than usual too.  No suffering from writer's block for me tonight.  No siree.  I feel I should probably apologize for that horrible rhyme there.  Blegh.  I went and bought some new knitting needles today.  They're circular.  So I can make an even wider blanket.  I am quite excited.  I need to find a pattern tonight or tomorrow.  Then I will go buy yarn.  I have the colours picked out already.  I got the needles for 50% at Michael's.  They've been giving me coupons every time I go.  Very good tactic on there part.  I've bought stuff there 5 times now in the past 2 weeks.  So honestly, don't be surprised if your Christmas present comes from there.

knitting needles

My clock is now showing 11:47pm.  That paragraph took a bit longer to write.  And finding the picture ate up more time.  I didn't know where to go this time.  Google helped.  Tomorrow I work at the library.  The Fish! mindset will be tested.  Perhaps it is best that way.  Trial by fire.

And 11:50pm.  I had to blow my nose after that last paragraph.  I can't think when it gets all blocked up.  It drives me insane.  I'm special like that.  Even though this happens every single year around this time.  It's just the air.  It doesn't get along with the inside of my nose.  I usually end up with a bloody nose whenever I try to blow it.  Which is essentially what caused the blockage in the first place.  Too much information?  Probably.

I'm thinking 11:52pm is probably a good time to start wrapping this up.  Just to be on the safe side.  The internet is not a thing to be trusted.  Although I do like internet banking.  Much more convenient.  Back off any would-be identity thieves.  You don't want to mess with me.  I will find you!

On that pleasant note, I bid you good night.  :-)

11:54pm.  Nice.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Happy Friday

Well it's Friday at last.  Another week finished, one week closer to my Jason coming back, one week closer to me starting a new chapter in my life.  I try not to focus too much on the countdown during the week, days can go by very slowly, but weeks go by much faster.  That doesn't really make sense.  But that's usually the way it works out.

So I've found a few interesting sites on my daily blog creep.

First is The End of the Internet.  I never listen to what it tells me, but it's a good thought.  :-)

Then there's GenderAnalyzer.  You type in the URL for a blog, and it predicts whether the author is male or female.  I found it entertaining - Manderz' Musings is 84% female, while InternalChaos is 97% male.

I also happened across the 101 Things to Do in 1001 Days Project.  It's definitely a good concept, although I'm not quite sure I'm ready to embark on something like that quite yet.  Maybe one day though.  The site also links to The Happiness Project.  That looks to be a great site with some great advice.  I definitely look forward to delving further into it soon.  It also links to a bunch of other sites.  So if you want something to kill some time, perhaps start there.

I'm not sure what's going on, but the internet keeps booting me off every 1-2 minutes.  It's becoming very annoying to constantly have to re-connect (especially since my computer doesn't seem to know how to do that by itself).

Hopefully I can get this posted by midnight.  :-S

Thursday, November 20, 2008


Construction class was a bit of a disappointment today. We only managed to get 3 pieces of siding up in our group. And we put some pieces up, only to be told to take them down by the teacher. However, there was quite the entertaining moment. Elissa was having trouble hammering in the nails - when she took her fingers off the nail, and hit the nail full on with the hammer, the nail would just go flying. And this kept happening. Steven and Cassie found this sign...and it was just perfect.


Here's the rest of the pictures I took (hence why there are none of me this week).





I decided to make all my pictures bigger. Tell me what you think. :-)

And I didn't forget the pictures I said I would post yesterday.

The snow covered tree

You can kind of see my tragus in this one.

And my rook in this one.

Basically, I just wanted to take pictures of myself (I was in a good mood). So the ears weren't my priority. Oops.

I'm feeling a bit sick of Jelly Bellies right now. I ate a pack of Twizzlers, and a box of original flavour Jelly Bellies in class this afternoon, and then almost a whole box of sour ones this evening. That's too much sugar (especially so many days this week) even for me. I've been really good about not eating as much lately, so this just shows me how my body had adapted to all the excess sugar I was putting in it.

I should probably be drinking more water though. At the moment I'm at 0 mL for today. And that's not uncommon. :-S I just don't like it most of the time. I've got lots of Crystal Light, but usually I'm just not thirsty.

I am quite excited - my cousin Jessica is getting back into blogging. And I get to help set up the blog. There aren't any posts yet, but soon!!! She's on my Blogs I Adore list (Mondae, Soda Bunny, and Me).

I am contemplating changing my background to something more Christmas-like. But that means I need to create a different header. Not hard to do, but something else to add to my list of things that keep me distracted in class. For anyone reading this who makes their own headers, what program do you use? I made mine using Photoshop, but that's only on my school laptop, so when I return it in a month, I won't have that available to me anymore.

Radelle (private) sent out an "everyone" tag. So here goes:

5 years ago
1. Starting high school
2. Playing volleyball
3. Shari passed away :-(
4. Dating Scott (oh Mandy - what were you thinking?!)
5. Best friends with Malyssa (what a difference 5 years can make)

5 things on my list for today (all 60 minutes that remain)
1. Read my fantastic book, Archeron
2. Knit my blanket
3. Write in my journal
4. Write in my Affirmation Book
5. Get to bed before midnight

5 things I would do if I was a millionaire
1. Max out my RRSP
2. Donate more
3. Buy a house
4. Buy some new "friends" in the puppy, kitty, and horse form
5. Go to Ireland

5 places I have lived
1. My current house with my parents
2. My old place during my "formative" years
3. The "other" old place as a baby
4. I guess I could say I "live" at Jason's condo on weekends

5 jobs I have had
1. Library - Customer Service
2. Vet Clinic - Receptionist
3. Pier 1 - Team Lead
4. Claire's - Keyholder
5. Library - Page (one of the best jobs ever!!)

5 Things that make me smile
1. My Jason
2. Puppies! (and kitties, and horses, and sometimes bunnies too)
3. My friends
4. Falling in soft snow
5. Random little things (the next one always unknown)

5 people I tag
1. Krystal
2. Jessica
3. anyone else that happens by and has a blog of their own (and comment so I can read it!)

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Post #12

I took a picture today, but since I can't upload it on this laptop (it can't read my camera for some reason), I'll have to post it later.  It's just a tree with some frost/snow on it.  Nothing too special.

There was more snow on the ground when I woke up this morning.  Not a lot.  But enough that I could see tire tracks in the cul-de-sac.  I guess the chinook that was supposed to come somewhere between Sunday and Tuesday isn't coming.

I've decided to admit to all my blog creeping.  So I'm publicly following every Blogger/Blogspot blog I enjoy now.  And I've attached links on my blogroll, so that everyone else can see what interests me.  I'm not quite sure to make of all the "mommy" blogs I'm reading.  Because having kids isn't really in my life plan - by my choice.

I also added my recommended reading list.  Found out about Goodreads through Krystal's blog, and I think it's absolutely genius.  Not that I plan on writing any book reviews or anything.  That's been something I've disliked doing since elementary school.

Tonight I went to yoga with Elissa and Jacqulyn.  It was ok.  I started dozing in savasana waiting for class to start - I can always tell when it happens since I start having very, very strange dreams/thoughts.  And I hardly even broke a sweat - which is extremely weird for me, since I used to sweat after 5 minutes of just laying in class.  I definitely was struggling to stay present.  Although my breathing was much better than it has been lately.  Not really sure what to make of the combo of those.

My question is: how do you compromise, when it appears to be a one-way-or-the-other type decision?

Tomorrow is Thursday.  Which means Construction class.  Yay!  I wonder what we'll be working on this time.  Hopefully I can get lots of work done, and still get a few pictures.  My camera is in my purse, ready to go.

I decided to make some earring changes.  Put a ring back in my tragus, put a bigger ring in my upper cartilage, put a smaller barbell in my rook, put a 16G ring in my 2nd holes, and a simple stud in my 3rd holes (soon to be stretched back to a 16G).  Basically - I put things back the way they once were.  As much as I want to look more presentable for work, I got all these piercings because I liked them, and I still do like them.  I'll try to remember to take a picture tomorrow - they're a bit red and swollen right now.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


My choices are:
A) finish my assignment (or at least get to the halfway point), because it is due tomorrow, and probably worth a pretty big chunk of marks; or
B) go to bed because it's 11pm, and I'm trying to get my sleep schedule back on track, and it's not like I was planning on finishing the assignment (truthfully) anyways.

The good student/perfectionist side of me wants to choose
Option A.  The unmotivated student is leaning towards Option B.

This post is obviously a part of neither Option A or Option B.  It is simply something for myself.

IMG_4910Today I bought 2 packs of Jelly Bellies.  One with original flavours, one with sour flavours.  The original flavour box kept me company during the mandatory lecture/presentation at school.  The sour flavour box was supposed to help me not stress over this assignment.  But I kind of ate most of them while reading random blogs (I love the Randomizer feature of! - although it doesn't seem to be working anymore for me).

I am thinking perhaps I should be leaving a comment on all the random blogs I frequent, just to introduce myself.  Especially since I'm noticing the SiteMeter symbol on a fairly regular basis.  I know I'm curious about who all happens across my blog.  That's why I love SiteMeter: I get to at least see where everyone who stops by is from.


I really wish more people would comment though.  Even a simple "hi" can make my day.  Honestly.  And guess what?! you don't even need an account or anything.    So, if you read this, I think you should make the effort.  Please?

I got more needles put in my back at physio tonight.  It was back to the usual pain level though, so it wasn't too bad.  Actually, the worst is probably the rest of the night when I get twinges every time I use those muscles.  Tomorrow it will be better than it was originally, so I'm not worried.

After class today I got some more Christmas shopping done.  So I'm completely done for 2 people, and I've started for another 3.  :-)  I still need more ideas for those 3, and the remaining people on my list.  I've been planning my shopping carefully so far - I'm avoiding rush hour (such a waste of gas!), and I'm trying to take advantage of as many sales and deals and coupons as possible.  A part of me feels guilty for trying to save money, but then my frugal side usually pulls through in the end.  I am going to need as much money in savings as possible for when I move out after all.

I keep hoping for a breakthrough in terms of Fort McMurray.  Either a job (even an interview would be nice right now!), finding a great place, school to finish, a chance to pack, anything really.  Because right now, I just want to get started.  I'm not very patient.

It's now 11:45pm.  I kept getting distracted by links to different blogs.  Story of my life lately.  Guess I went with Option C.  But now I really need to go to bed.

Don't forget to comment. ;-)

Monday, November 17, 2008

I Did What I Could


2 1/2 hours of complete frustration.  This is what I have to show for it.  The assignment is only half done.  There is supposed to be entourage as well as "proper" doors and windows.  But it's 10:30pm, and I am done crying over this assignment.

I really wish I didn't dislike Google Sketch Up and AutoCAD.  They both have the potential to be great tools at some point in my life.  When I was in high school, I enjoyed AutoCAD.  But as this school year progresses, I only grow to dislike (hate even) these programs more.

For my sanity's sake I am no longer trying for my "best" mark in these courses...only to pass.  I constantly feel guilty about this decision.  But I am unmotivated enough about school as it is right now, so I keep telling myself this is just making it easier.  Too bad I'm such a perfectionist.

I was doing really well at staying positive in my AutoCAD class today.  I was really focusing on not letting all the problems I was having get to me.  I ate a Jelly Belly every time I started having bad thoughts.  I went through a lot of Jelly Bellies, but I managed to spend an entire 2 hour class working.  That's rare for me.

I realize complaining only attracts more "bad things" to me.  But I'm not really sure what else to do with all my frustration.  I did physical exercise earlier today, and obviously that did nothing.  Crying doesn't help either.  So I've pretty much run out of ideas.  If you have any suggestions, they'd be greatly appreciated.

For now, I am going to go get ready for bed.  And then I will do some knitting or reading.  At least let my mind calm down a bit before I try to sleep.  My dreams are weird enough already.

Tomorrow is a new day.  Hopefully I will be back to my usual self - happy and positive.


NaBloPoMo...aka National Blog Posting Month.  nablo1108.120x90The a blog a day for the entire month of November.  I'm hopping on the bandwagon a bit late, and I definitely haven't been posting everyday, but I think it's a really cool idea.  And I invite every other blogger (and non-blogger!) who reads this to give it a try as well.  If you click on the picture, it will take you to the site.

I am proud to announce that I was in my bed for 10pm last night.  I didn't turn my lights out until 10:30pm as I knitted another row of my blanket, and wrote in my Affirmation Book and journal.  But it's definitely way better than the 12-1am bedtime I've been keeping for the past week.

Today I was able to get up at 6:30am.  Only a half hour after my first alarm went off.  I'm quite impressed.  I was only 15 minutes late for class, and I'm going to put a bit of the blame on the icy roads and ensuing traffic.  But only a bit, because I also decided to eat breakfast at home instead of on the go (and given the road conditions, I'm happy I did).

I bought Twizzlers and sour Jelly Bellies for a snack.  The jellybeans are good, like always.  But the Twizzlers are a huge disappointment.  They're rock solid.  And my jaw started hurting after eating only one.  I've been trying to buy less - especially snacks and junk food - so it really sucks that I've wasted money today.

I wish I took more pictures.  I brought my camera with me today - hopefully I can get some with Katherine tonight.  OlympusThe camera on my phone no longer works.  And that really sucks, because then I'd always have my camera handy.  My parents are most likely getting me a new camera for Christmas (I asked for the Olympus Stylus 850SW as it's waterproof, shockproof, and freezeproof; meaning it's perfect for me and my klutziness).

I would like to find the perfect agenda.  I bought one I really liked at the beginning of the school year, but having used it for 2 1/2 months now, I really dislike the format.  It has a day a page.  So I'm constantly flipping back pages to see what I was supposed to do for homework 2 days ago.  Very annoying.  I don't use it that much any more for this reason.  I remember back in junior high and high school that I used the ones we were given constantly.  They had a week spread across 2 pages.  So it was really easy to see what had happened, and what was coming up.  They also had a monthly calendar section as well.  So now, I'm trying to find one of those.  I'm picky though, and if it doesn't have lines to write on, I don't want anything to do with it.

So, I'm coming out of the closet on a decision I made at the beginning of the month.  I'm moving to Fort McMurray after this semester of school is over.  Meaning end of December/beginning of January.  I'm moving in with Jason - he's in charge of finding us a room, or a suite, or someplace to rest our head for a semi-decent amount of money.  Right now I don't have a job, but I am looking.  But I'm moving, job or not, when the time comes.  I have to pay rent either way, so I may as well focus on only one job hunt in the new year.  This hasn't been an easy decision, but I feel it is the right one for me at this time.  Next on my list is telling my grandparents (which shouldn't be too hard).

Sunday, November 16, 2008


Tonight I am going to bed early.  Very early.  Hopefully by 10pm.  Wish me luck!

Finding the Happiness and More

I've been thinking.  About all the things that make me happy.  And maybe, just maybe, a bit more about who I really am, deep down inside.

Reading makes me happy.  No ulterior motive (like school), no deadlines.  Just getting lost in the story.  Forgetting about everything else.  Not wanting to do anything else until the story is finished.

Or being active.  But always with someone else (or multiple someone elses).  Unless it's a solo walk in the woods, or something similar.  For me, the social aspect is vitally important.

Kissing.  A simple peck.  A tongue-twisting french.  Anything to bring on that tingly feeling.

I enjoy relaxing.  Sometimes in front of the TV, sometimes with my knitting or cross-stitching.  Forgetting about all the stresses that might exist.

I like candles that smell pretty, and blogging, and writing in my journal.  I like going out for coffee with a friend.  I love sushi and really like  candy.

I am intrigued by fashion(but not a slave), and a nice pair of heels can instantly make me feel sexy.  I am not an accessories girl.  But I love kicking back in jeans, a hoodie, and a pair of skate shoes.  I enjoy playing around with my make-up, but I am willing to walk out of the house with nothing on.

I still don't know what I want to do as a career.  And maybe that's the way it's meant to be.  In the end, it should be about the journey and what I learn along the way.  It's not about the money it's more important to be happy.

I'm still a bit self-conscious, and hate being the centre of attention of a group.  I am scared of spiders, and get jittery with a wasp buzzing around.  I love dogs and cats and horses.

Chaos and mess drives me insane.  Organization is my realm.  I find it almost seductive.  I would rather clean someone else's place than my own (up to a certain point).

I am a picky eater.  Always have been, probably always will.  I like piercings, and love tattoos.

Maybe I know more about myself than I think I do.

Friday, November 14, 2008

"Me" Day

Today was a pretty great day.  I stayed up late last night (a night owl's dream), and slept in this morning.  I sat and ate multiple bowls of cereal for breakfast while reading a great book.  I took the time to re-organize some of the items in my Inbox 2008_11_14 001(they've been getting a bit messy for my liking).  I actually had the chance to blow dry my hair after my shower (and this never happens!).  I went to the bank to find out more info about setting up an RRSP (thanks Mom and Dad for the money).  Then I got to do some Christmas shopping (I'm starting early for a change).  I also bought a candle for myself.  A yummy smelling one - vanilla almond latte.

Tomorrow it's back to work.  I haven't worked at the vet clinic in 3 weeks now, so it's going to be a bit weird.  I'm looking forward to it though, especially since I can definitely use the money.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

A Vile Word, Sharp Needles, and a Spilled Smoothie

I just started reading a new book: Chasing Harry Winston by Lauren Weisberger (aka the author of The Devil Wears Prada - a fantastic book and movie in my mind).  I fell in love (way beyond the like I was feeling at the time) when on pages 14 and 15 I found the following:chasing harry winston

"Panties is a vile word,"..."I'm just pointing out its relative grossness.  All women hate the word.  Panties.  Just say it - panties.  It makes my skin crawl."..."Do you not find it repulsive?"

Like wow, I never knew other people (albeit fictional in this circumstance) hated that word as much as I do.

Of course when I pointed this out to Jason, he immediately began using it in every single sentence for the next minute or so.  *sigh*

I must say, I'm slowly beginning to like Photoshop.  Not that I use it very much, but at least I'm slowly figuring some of the extremely large amount of tools available.  Such as how to crop.  Or how to resize photos to be used in my header.  And how to use the eyedrop tool to match the colour from my background.  Sometimes it takes very little for me to feel accomplished.

Tonight I had physio.  I've been going since my car accident in September (just got to love whiplash).  I slept funny the past couple of nights so I had another muscle flare-up.  Just when we finally got rid of the last one.  My therapist does acupuncture.  And
dry-needling (meaning a needle is used to pick apart the knots in the muscle, which is supposed to make the muscle heal itself, and therefore, get rid of the knots).  I was so lucky as to have require the dry-needle version.  Not that I really mind (I'm pretty good at dealing with pain).  But tonight hurt.  And there were a couple times when the pain started radiating.  My therapist made me feel a bit better saying that I didn't react any differently than before when I told him how bad it was after.

It's never hurt that much though.  It worries me a bit that my muscles can get so tense and tight that I need treatment such as this.  For the record though, this type of treatment works great on me.  However, it hurt to drive home.  I didn't want to go around corners because that made it hurt even more (and there's a lot of corners to go around once I get back in my neighbourhood).  When I got home, I lay on my bed and talked to Jason on the phone.  I just didn't want to move.

It's not really painful right now.  Still twinges when I move too much though.  But tomorrow should be better.

At lunch today I pulled "a Mandy".  What exactly "a Mandy" refers to varies.  But it's always something klutzy, and silly, that I just have a knack of doing (and on a very regular basis).  Today my "Mandy" move involved taking a sip of the smoothie in my thermos, but completely missing my mouth.  It dribbled down my cheeks and chin onto the table instead.  I really feel that I'm regressing the older I get.  Steven proceeded to make me feel better though (slightly) by pulling "a Mandy" a few minutes later.

vinyl crewWe put up vinyl siding in Construction class today.  I'm a little disappointed with how un-productive I feel after that class.  We managed to put up only 3 pieces of siding.  In 45 min.  That just seems so inconsequential.  The house will never be finished at this rate.  I suppose I'm frustrated by the lack of motivation other people have towards this class (and I can see why they're frustrated with me for not being motivated about our other classes).  Maybe I just need to "take charge" and get more of an vinylassembly line system going next week.  Or stop trying to be "nice" and let everyone else do work.  If you want to do something, do it.  If not, I'm more than willing to do the work, so I should do as much as I can.

I must say I quite like my stickered-up hard hat.  Makes me feel quite cool.  And I am definitely more than willing to wear it the whole class (and not just for safety reasons!).  I'm also amused at the lululemon sticker so prominent on the side - it seems slightly at odds with the situation.  To my mind at least.

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Here's a moment of intense concentration (and I felt my tongue needed to be involved).




I thought I would also post a few pictures of where I was at a year ago.  Just for fun (and a chance to reminisce on my part - although some things probably should stay in the past).  And I felt like posting pictures, but I don't have anything new.







Today was a crappy day.  I'm leaving it at that - I don't need to give it any more power.

In other news, during my day off yesterday I watched the movie Enchanted, and knitted.

This is my "current" project: a lap blanket.
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This is an "old" project I found in my knitting drawer: no real plan - possibly a scarf.
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I like to keep my knitting simple, especially since I tend to forget about the projects for random periods of time.  And this way I spend less time "un-knitting" my mistakes (I happen to be really good at it, I'm too scared to take the needles out and just rip out the mistakes in case I can't all the loops back on the needle properly).

For Christmas this year I'm trying to avoid gift cards at all costs.  They've been my "gift of choice" if you will for the longest time.  So easy.  But I want to be a little more creative this year.  I'm still asking for a Wish List from people, but hopefully I can figure a few out on my own.

I've been debating on and off about sending Christmas cards to the people I still care about that I'm not getting gifts for.  But then I remember I don't have any addresses.  Plus my To Do List already stresses me out at the best of times.  So perhaps adding something bordering on unnecessary (however thoughtful and caring the intention might be) is just a bit this side of crazy.  We'll see.  So if I end up asking for your address, just send it ASAP.  Or you could send it to me regardless of whether I ask or not.

My blog reading list has become quite long.  I love every minute of catching up though.  I haven't posted the majority of them in my Fav Blogs List simply because I'm a total creeper on most of them.  Perhaps a quick list here (where it will eventually become lost in the mass of old posts) will ease the guilt I feel I should be feeling (although I really don't feel that guilty - that's why people have the opportunity to go private with their blogs).'s the links (I hope they work, as I'm simply copying them from my Google Reader):
Some are more frequent posters than others, some are "people" others are run by "companies/organizations/etc". 

But I am staying up too late for all the wrong reasons, so I'm going to attempt to get ready for bed.

Monday, November 10, 2008

A Weekend Together

My Jason came back home this weekend.  First time since he left in October.  It was a fantastic 3 days - we managed to cram a lot in (including the ever-so-important cuddle time).


Thursday night I was so excited, and didn't really want to go to bed.  So I did some more cleaning of Jason's room (because I enjoy cleaning/organizing other people's stuff).  And I rolled some coins.  $75 worth to be exact.  It does add people, believe me.  I also ate a whole container of organic raspberries, and some oatmeal chocolate chip cookies.


Friday I picked up Jason from the bus station just after 6:30am.  I slept in a bit, but his bus was late so it ended up working out quite nicely.  Then we got to have some early morning cuddling.  :-)  I definitely miss that.  We went to Phil's for breakfast, to the mall for a bit, met up with some of his old co-workers for lunch, Jason got a massage that I'd given him for Christmas last year, then we walked around the mall a bit more.  For dinner we ordered sushi, and went back to his place and watched Idiocracy.  We ordered way more sushi than we usually eat, with the hope that we might have a few pieces leftover.  Well, we both can put away sushi like no one's business, so that didn't happen.  Oh well.  Then we went to bed early.

I'm going to get in trouble for posting this one...but I think it's cute.  I love watching him shave.

Breakfast at Phil's



Saturday we slept in and cuddled (as per my request - Jason's the type to get up early and go).  We went to Pffantastic Pannkoek Haus (I think that's how it's spelled) for breakfast.  So yummy.  After that we hit up the mall again.  I got kind of grumpy with all the people (and the ensuing chaos in the parking lot).  But we went for a walk in the dog park, and all was right again.  It was fun looking at all the dogs, and making plans for when we have dogs of our own.  We had more sushi for dinner, and watched Celebrity Rehab II.  Then we went over to Chris and Lani's for a visit and to watch The Incredible Hulk.  A bit of a late night, but it was good times.


More sushi!


Sunday morning we had to get up early to meet up with Jason's parents and Dustin and Tiffany for breakfast.  I made us late (it takes me a while to get ready...even without doing my hair or
make-up).  We went to Denny's, and we had to take up two booths since we didn't all fit in one (this Denny's was poorly designed - nothing but small booths).  After that we all hung out at the condo for a bit.  Once everyone left, Jason and I went back to the dog park.  It was a really nice day out, and there were dogs everywhere!  So nice.  We got some bubble tea after, then went back for a nap.  Dinner was pizza, and then we had to pack.  We left time for a
good-bye cuddle (which of course, I spent a large chunk of crying).  Then I took Jason back to the bus station, and waited there with him until his bus came.


A beautiful day at the dog park

Dogs everywhere


Saying good-bye was definitely much harder this time around.  But I got "over" it a lot quicker - I know we have the daily phone and/or webcam conversations to look forward to.  This next stretch is going to be 6 weeks instead of 4, but then we'll get 5 days together for Christmas.

I can say that distance sure does make the heart grow fonder. 

This is "Pulkie".  Jason brought him back from Peru (way back in April).  He's made of baby alpaca.  So soft.  He's my cuddle-buddy for all the nights Jason's not home.  I figured that earned him an honourable mention.