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Manderz Musings: November 2009

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Monday, November 30, 2009

C'est Fini!

After this post, NaBloPoMo is over.  This is post #29 this month.  I can't say many of those were overly inspired posts, but this is a start.  Next year, I can set my sights a little bit higher.

My new phone came today!  A Blackberry Tour, which already is a huge step up from the Pearl Flip I had before.  It took some time to get my computer connecting with it correctly, but (all thanks to Jill's recommendation) I was able to sync all of the data from the old to the new.  Without Telus' stupid $25 fee.  I mean, really?  That much?

Tomorrow afternoon I leave on my very first business trip.  A quick flight to Edmonton, an overnight stay (which will be spent working on a school assignment), a day of training, and then a quick flight back home.  All taking place in slightly over 24 hours.  It seems a tad bit expensive for only a day of training, but that's just me.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Almost Made It

I missed posting yesterday.  I kept reminding myself to post early in the day, but I pushed it off until it was too late.  The thing is, even though I technically won't complete NaBloPoMo, I am very happy with how well I did. 29 posts in 30 days is still something to be proud of.

Jason is going out of town this week.  I always miss him terribly, even though we did a 6-week stretch apart when he first moved to Fort McMurray.  He's such a huge part of my life up here though.  Hopefully studying for finals will help keep me occupied.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Day 27

NaBloPoMo is nearing to a close.  In some ways I'm happy, in other ways I'm sad.  As much as blogging daily has been a mostly enjoyable challenge, I will most likely reduce my posts.  Perhaps I can commit to writing some posts of length.

I am currently researching ethical gifts.  It's something I've thought about the past couple of years, but I'm thinking this might be the year I finally take the plunge.  Does anyone have any recommendations or favourites of their own?

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Day 26

I was very tired today. The late nights finally caught up with me. So after work, I came home and went straight to bed. That always makes for a good night.

When I have "naps", I tend to have the weirdest dreams. Tonight I was dreaming about spreadsheets to keep track of networking contacts. Perhaps my brain is telling me to stop focusing on both so much?

In other news, I'm going on an overnight business trip next week. Just to Edmonton, but it will be my first time traveling alone. I've only flown by myself once. This could get interesting as I can get a bit paranoid about the details. It will definitely be a good experience for me.

What was your first time traveling alone like?


Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Just a Few Thoughts

I had an AMAZING day today.

Sometimes it’s the simple things that make you happy.  Like lime coconut hand lotion.

An epic quote from my presentation last night: “We’re going to take their money and send them away.”  I’m quite proud of myself for thinking of that on the spot.

I say “Thank you” to the majority of the people on the phone at work.  I don’t really know what else to say in closing thats professional.

Our office Christmas party is on Saturday.  I bought my outfit tonight.  Here's a preview...the shoes:

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

And It's Over

Tonight we presented our computer assignment.  It went much better than expected.  The teacher even approached our group after class and told us we had a great idea.  All in all though, I'm happy it's over.  I have a final assignment to do over the next week, and then the class is done.

While attempting to trim Gizmo's paw hair tonight , I kept jabbing myself with the tips of the scissors.  Sometimes I'm just a klutz.  But now my thumb is throbbing with that painful itch.  Please just go away.

I'm working on some ideas to make life a bit less stressful next semester.  Nothing is official yet, but I will keep you posted.  For now, I can tell you there's a light at the end of this tunnel I seem to be in.

Today was a good day, and I'm feeling in really good spirits.  I even laughed at some of the jokes made by Jay Leno.  And that NEVER happens.

I just wanted to apologize if you're having trouble commenting since I've started using Disqus.  You don't need to log on, or create an account.  All it needs is your name and an email address (which doesn't get posted!).  I highly recommend creating a Disqus account though - you can keep track of all your comments, and receive notification if someone replies to something you left.  It's all about creating a community.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Day 23

Today was rather uneventful.  So uneventful in fact, that the most exciting part was going grocery shopping with Jason.  I'm looking forward to not having to eat soup the rest of the week, as I've been relying on that for lunch basically since I started the new job.  I bought some seafood dip which is just delicious.  Especially when I pair it with some sesame rice crackers.  Yum-my!  I'm slowly attempting to integrate some healthier options into my daily meals.  And I should clarify by saying "healthier to me", as Jason still looks at my food like it is junk.  But apples are fruit, lettuce is a veggie, and I've just upped my daily intake in that category by at least a full serving.  I'm proud.

Tomorrow my computer assignment is due.  I can't wait for it to be over with, so I can move on.

For now though, it is bedtime for me and the pups.  6 a.m. comes much too quickly for a night owl like me.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Finally, Some Pictures

 I haven't been very quick on the uptake as far as uploading pictures like everyone requested.  But yesterday I remembered my camera when I was out playing in the snow with the fuzzybutts.

If you're interested, I uploaded a large chunk of the pictures from our San Diego trip  (3 months ago!) to Flickr.  Click here to check it out!

This is what happens when you leave your shoes on the deck when you go inside to grab your camera.




Rough-housing like usual


Gizmo is trying to eat the watering can.

Gizmo has the ball and Dexter wants it.

Dexter got the ball

Gizmo playing with the ball

He likes to use his nose to throw snow around

Bounding through the snow

Inside...don't you love our rug?!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

A Mini Hodgepodge

An Intro
Sometimes, when I'm doing mundane tasks, rather than staying present, I tend to think out entire paragraphs to post to my blog.  Most never get written down, and go to the Land of Wasted and Lost Thoughts.

Today though, I am procrastinating.  So instead of working on my assignment, I am sitting down to write a draft of my most recent mind blogs.

A Bit About Me
I am not a passionate person.  Never have been, doubt I ever will be.  If I like something, "like" is an adequate term.  All those fancy words that other people use, for me, they are all interchangeable with "like".  This is directly related to motivation and staying power.

I am readily bored.  Something new and exciting does not stay that way for long.  If something catches my attention, I will go at whole-heartedly for a while.  One day though, I will decide I have had enough. It will fall to the wayside.  I don't always know why I have lost interest.  Other times, the challenge is no longer there.  I am great at starting projects, but I almost never finish them.  This happens with sports, and work, and school, and everything really.

I dislike children.  Don't get me wrong, some of them are adorable, and say cute things, and act all sweet like.  But even then, I like them best from a distance.  I am not the type to make a fool of myself for a kid's amusement.  Unless I am drunk.  Just saying.  If there is an annoying kid nearby, I get annoyed.  Very quickly.  Jason wants a family one day.  Me, not so much.  I would much rather be selfish and hoard my money for myself and my adventures.  I don't see the benefit of dedicating 18+ years of my time and money to a little brat.  Added to that, I have very little patience.  I still enjoy reading about other people's kids and families.  It's just not something I want for myself.

I absolutely hate getting in trouble.  Even the slightest reprimand can ruin my day.  When I think about my childhood, the memories that often pop up first are those where I got in trouble.  That's how much it affects me.  I am definitely too much of a perfectionist.

I grew up as a straight-A student.  It was expected of me.  By me, my parents, my peers, my teachers.  Everyone it seemed.  I am lucky, I never really had to work at it.  Learning came naturally, and easily.  I rarely studied - I simply did a quick review before a test or finals.  I enjoyed school, and sometimes I even enjoyed my homework.  Post-secondary is proving to be a very different experience for me though.  A lot of it has to do with a lack of motivation.  I am no longer one of the "smart ones".  I am simply mediocre.  Everyone around me was also a straight-A student.  The competition got too fierce, and I dropped out.  (Literally.  Twice.)  Even my third attempt at it is proving difficult.  An 85% on a midterm made me think of myself as a failure.  Old habits die hard.  And yet, I give up the easiest of marks - not attending all the lectures, not completing all the assignments.    This semester has been a constant struggle to stay motivated.  To just get through it.  I've adopted a new mantra in hopes it will help "C's get degrees."  Some people will probably say I'm selling myself short.  But for me, just getting through the courses will get me farther than attempting to ace them, and giving up entirely when I don't.

I have this addiction to spending money.  It doesn't even matter on what.  I get as much a rush from buying groceries as buying shoes.  It's not out of control, I've stayed out of debt.  But I struggle with saving money.  I've tried so many different things to change that, but I keep spending what I've saved.

I am a hoarder.  It's not out of control.  I do know how to purge.  And I do on a semi-regular basis.  But it's a struggle to not keep the stuff in the first place.  I always think I will need it for something.  So that means I need to find a home for it for about a year until I realize I haven't actually needed it.  I also feel guilty if I spend money on something.  If I get rid of it, it's like throwing money down the drain.  I don't consider myself materialistic, but I realize more and more everyday that I might just be lying to myself.

I have seen this application (?) on a few different blogs now.  It's a reinvention of the comment, enabling actual conversations.  Probably not something I really need.  But I like that I can now respond to comments directly.  Be a bit more involved.

What are your thoughts on it?

I explored the blogging world a bit today.  And in recent weeks.  Today I finally got around to updating my Blogroll.  The majority of the blogs are the same, but there are some new ones now.  This time, only a couple were cut, and those merely for lack of updates.  Anyways, I suggest giving it a quick look if you have some time to spare.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Day 20

Friday was a good day overall. I got lots done at work.  At home I watched a bunch of tv.

Saturday will hopefully be for homework.  Maybe a touch of housework.

Sunday is unplanned for the moment.

Jason is working.  Overtime.  Saturday and Sunday.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Day 19

Tonight was rather uneventful. I went for a nap after dinner. And ended up sleeping the night away.

Tomorrow is Friday. Meaning I can wear jeans to work. Always a day to look forward to in my mind.

It's late though and despite my nap, my eyes keep dropping more and more. Sometimes you just need to catch up.


Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Day 18

Sometimes it is so easy to let yourself be overcome by negativity. And even if you surmount the negativity monotony is close behind it. Sometimes positivity can be near impossible to find.

There was a time in my life when I was super optimistic. I could find the silver lining in anything. I always had energy to spare.

Something changed that though. I don't know what. Now it's like the exact opposite. I feel like I'm sitting on the sidelines watching the happy people frolick about. And the greatest difficulty about getting out of a negative mindset is convincing yourself to stick with it. Your mind is working against you working to rewire it.

With this mindset I'm dealing with, I find a lot of past issues resurfacing. Things like body image and self esteem and time management. Issues I had believed were water under the bridge. To see them coming back is disheartening.

Deep, deep inside I know I can get through this. Cast the negativity aside. Embrace the light once again. But the willpower to accomplish it is not there. Yet. It will one day. Hopefully sooner than later. In the meantime, I intend to find little positives. Here and there. Wherever and whenever I'm able.

I shall start with a cuddle with my Jay and some sleep.


Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Day 17

I feel blah and unmotivated and haven't a single clue what to write about.  Stupid NaBloPoMo.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Flowers Make Me Smile

Today I wanted a hug. Since she couldn't give me one of those, Jessica got me the next best and plants. It definitely made my day. Changed it from a not so good one to a great one.

Once again, thank you! And LUMULK!


Sunday, November 15, 2009

It's That Time of Year

About this time of year, I generally start thinking about Christmas shopping.  Who is on my list this year.  How much money I am willing to spend.  And most important - what the heck am I going to buy?

One of the most popular sayings, "It's the thought that counts", has the ability to drive me absolutely bonkers.  My thought process about this phrase goes as follows:  So if it's the thought that counts, I should probably put some thought into what I buy everyone.  Which means I need to think about what each person likes, wants or needs.  And if the gift is not something special that's completed suited to them, well, then I've failed.  Needless to say, it can make Christmas shopping very stressful.

Shopping for men is even harder, because they never let on what they want or need.

This year I'm tempted to just buy something that strikes my fancy.  Something usable, but perhaps not something the person necessarily "needs".  Make the season a bit less stressful on myself.  Especially given that most of my shopping will be done online due to the lack of decent stores where I live.

How do you decide on Christmas gifts for the people on your list?

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Handwriting Meme

I found this while hunting on Flickr today.  The instructions were:
1. Your name / username
2. Left handed or right handed
3. Favourite letters to write
4. Least favourite letters to write
5. "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog."
6. Tag 6 people.

My Blackberry takes horrible pictures.  And iPhoto refused to flip the picture I took with the Mac.  So this is all I have.  

Today was rather unproductive.   Although I did make a couple exciting purchases on Etsy - some glass magnets of paw prints, and a rubber return address stamp for myself.  I debated the stamp for a bit as I will eventually be changing my name.  But in the meantime, it will be exciting to have a pretty stamp.  Just because.  Perhaps it will encourage me to write more letters.  Or cards.  Or simple notes.  Anything really.

Maybe that's my problem with writing people - I'm always setting my goals too high.  A long letter is great.  But when it never gets written, it means nothing.  So a short letter that actually gets sent means a lot more.  Hmm...

On that note, if you want me to write you something, e-mail me your address (if I don't currently have it that is).

Friday, November 13, 2009


I bought some new Sharpie fine markers a few weeks ago. Mainly to be used when I start my new journal. However, tonight I decided to pull them out and do some doodling.

I am not an artist. I am almost always disappointed by my drawings. The images look so much better in my head than on paper. In order to minimize the negativity, I used Google Images to give me ideas.

The result - a decent doodle.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Day 12

My body is slowly adjusting to waking up earlier for work. I feel tired by 10 pm. On days off I don't sleep in past 8.
Its something I would have fiercely claimed impossible a few years ago. I was attached to being a night owl. What I've come to realize though is that while I adjust to getting up earlier, I can still lay claim to night owl status. Perhaps early bird or lark will never be attained, or perhaps they will. I now realize I will adapt. Eventually.


Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Day 11

The concept of writing a post a day for an entire month is great.  The reality of it falls short.  Some days you don't want to write, and it's noticeable.  I am not a dedicated writer, I have no desire to push through the unwillingness.  Quality pays the price.

Today was a weird day.  After a breakfast our with Jay and Brad, I came back and started working on my accounting assignment.  I got set up in the bedroom with Jay's laptop and some new tunes.  For a change, it was actually enjoyable to do homework.  Once I finished, I surfed the web for a bit, and everything went downhill from there.  I didn't want to do anything.  Definitely not start on another assignment.  Didn't want to be on the computer or watch tv.  Didn't want to read a book or even make dinner.  So I lay in bed, and eventually had a nap.  Which wasn't even that great.

Lately, it really feels like the dogs are putting a lot of strain on my relationship with Jay.  We disagree on how to deal with their behavior.  I blame our actions (or mainly, lack thereof), and he blames the dogs.  I definitely get the impression he would have no objections to giving them up, and that's not an option for me.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

So Sleepy

It's time for some sleep. Tomorrow is a day for rest, relaxation, and playing catch up.

Monday, November 9, 2009

It's the Dog Blog!

(aka the post written by Mr. Gizmo himself)


(I'm sorry, I found it too cute.)

The Day is Almost Over

Today, well, to put it nicely, it sucked.  A couple customers decided to yell at me over the phone, my cough got worse, I managed to hit my hand, I wore my "fat" pants...  I could continue, but I won't.

Perhaps I should take the time to write about a topic.  Especially since it seems to bring out some of my better writing.  However, I really don't want to write.  I would much prefer to finish my day off by reading a book.  So that's exactly what I'm going to do.


Sunday, November 8, 2009

The Real Day 8 Post

Somehow tonight, even though I'm feeling better, I'm twice as tired as I was last night at this time.  I do not understand.  Perhaps it is a good thing though as I must get up early for work.

A part of me wants to keep writing.  I can feel words building in my head.  Usually I would let them flow until they couldn't flow anymore.  But tonight, I think sleep might be more important.  I'm better, but I'm definitely not over this cold/flu/sickness yet.

So a very quick, abbreviated story to end this weekend.  I attempted to use my neti pot today.  Try and clear the blockage from my nasal cavities.  Instead of helping, all it did was make my nose tickle.  Which set me on a sneezing spree.  And sadly, the blockage remained.  (Sorry for any potentially unwanted images).